bluh this is driving me nuts!!!
.. i just don't know what to do anymore i can't handle this ..fucking weight!!!!




thank god for my best friends

So ya American eagle job and PAnera bread , and art school haha hope i can do it all , i'll be busy so i'll be skinnier woot!!!!!

ok on a sad note me and my boyfriend broke up and everytime he calls i get so sad and upset but now he said he wont, i don't know if i wanna go back to him i like the attention i like being single .... i wasn't happy but i hate seeing him sad... i hate seeing anyone sad, anyway there is this kid at school i think i like him but i want to be single for a while so we mess around then we're awkward towards eachother at school.... drama my life haha anyway i'm gonna go clean my room wish me luck!!

So its about 2am here and i'm still awake i have school today haha well later on , but i was feeln great about myself but now i feel like shit , because i ate gummy's ... 120cals eeeww..... i was already up to 800 today so fucking fat!!!!, i hate my fucking legs i need to lose them , anyway morning rant i should sleep hahaha,

Alright so ya this is my first one here haha, though i used to have another one this is the new one. Anyway , i started taking hydroxycut, because of advice from a friend who took it and has parents that are doctors and said it was good and worked well. Anyway i'm sitting at home tonight, a little confusing about how much i should weigh and whatever. lol i started school monday at the Art Insittute for Fashion design and Retail Managment can't wait to really get into it haha ^_^ so excited. so far two days tomorrow will be day three so we'll see. There is this boy in my color theory's class who i think is really cute but i'm not sure how to talk to him ahha so we'll see how that turns out , but anyway just looking at the proana site and loving it i have to workout tonight do 200more crunches and then running for my legs i ate about a grad total of 800cals today which sucks i didn't wanna go over 600 maybe tomorrow , i'm thinking next week i'll try the 2,4,6,8 so we shall see well going to go bye ^_^